Naomibatchi

Never thought the hardest decision I ever had to make with my life came with the scorn of others.  But, I guess you can't win with everyone.  

Anyway, I've decided on joining the Army since my last post here, and am hopeful, cause its the only thing I have left, that it will lead me and that which I care for to a better future.  Though, as the reflective attitude that I've been bringing upon myself seems to bee keeping up, I've come to notice that I feel as though I've lost a part of myself in my desperate struggle to survive and get any form of support structure.  Though, I guess survival at any cost tends to do that.  Its just my forgetful mind can't even think of what that part of me might be.  I know I haven't been as creative as I could be, and I know I should be.  But, I have no access to a scanner to include my non-digital work, and I lost the stylus to my tablet in one of my plethora of moves across the country.  Its not that I haven't been doing it, but I took a lot more joy out of it by being able to show it.  If that makes any sense.

Anyway, this is just a short little thing, a blurb to get my thoughts and frustrations out a bit.  I'm done with rants that are used to attack and punish me, which just builds up the stress instead of releasing it as what a rant is for.  So, that's all I can give on the subject.  Either way, I'm looking to possibly be making a Let's Play/Let's Draw channel once I'm no longer in any state of homelessness and of course am happy that I'll be able to send my first, of the three I actually finished, books out to a publisher, and that should help.  I'm just terrified that I'll lose my femininity and any more parts of me though this military excursion, but its for me to survive, and for the best computer a person could ask for to have a roof over its head and a plug to give it power.  Great, now I'm all teary eyed, gotta get my t-girl self together.  

I'll wrap this up, and am on steam for those who don't know, you can add me if you like the username is Batchiryuu, which will most likely become my online persona in the world of lets plays, but its something that I enjoy.  I like watching others play games, and though I'm not confident in my comedy, I enjoy making things for others.  

Anyway, Later Days. 

And it feels like I'm coming home.  Lost my journal skin cause not premium.  At least I think, this whole sentence might just be a lie.  But, overall, not letting some bratty individual's hollow threats take away something I worked so hard for, which is you all my watchers and fans.  

So, let us see, what have I been up to and what can all that still actually watch me been up to.

I finished Dark Hunter Book 1, go me, and am now just in search of the funds to send it to the prospective publisher, and have some great art to show for it should things go down that line, though lost my Wacom stylus in a move during those couple of years I was away.  Though wasn't really away, you could have easily all found me at my little hidden gem account Shinobibatchi, god its been so long that I forgot the coding.  

Anyway, will hopefully soon be back into a stable and secure position.  Though, it might involve me joining the military.  I will try to be active here on deviant, with pictures of sketches, free writings, that DA only series I was talking about years fucking ago, and other just nonesense I get myself into cause I tend to be alone in any endevour I do, and holidays...and birthdays..., so I hope that I can share those times with the friends and fans I have gathered and we can all move on and forget about those dark times behind me.  

Wish me luck, and later days.

An addendum:  I leave you all with Achievement Hunter laughs cause...well, I share the laughs.  And feel free to comment so I know your still watching. bleh  Real Later Days